I find that motivation waxes and wanes. At times it is so prevalent it is overwhelming. And at others it is like it never existed in the first place.
At bible study this week we were left with the challenge to let God do something crazy in our lives. To be open to the craziness. Crazy being defined as something that is out of the norm or seemingly 'crazy' to you but might be completely normal to someone else.
There are obviously lots of things I could do that would be considered crazy, at least for me. Sky diving. Drinking in the morning. Eating red meat! But there is one thing that has been weighing on my heart for a long time. Every time I revisit it or try to get serious about it I flake. I give up. It's hard and I too easily succumb to the thoughts of 'I can't do this.'
Instead of resisting this idea, again, or pushing it aside, I am choosing to embrace it. To embrace the crazy: I want to live a minimalistic lifestyle. And I want to start now.
In some ways I am pretty minimalistic. Like in my makeup - I don't wear much. But in other ways I am pretty much a mild hoarder. In those areas, the thought of reducing my possessions, my material belongings, is frightening. I have anxiety when I think about thinking about getting rid of clothes or shoes or books. That anxiety, that resistance to getting rid of things is what pushes me forward with this.
I want to get to a place where I am more focused on what I can do next, who I can help, what the next adventure will be and not focused on what outfit to add to my closet, what newest gadget to purchase.
I am documenting this process to keep myself on track and to keep myself honest. I'll try to update regularly. Hopefully one day I can look back on all of this and reflect on how different life is after making this change.
At bible study this week we were left with the challenge to let God do something crazy in our lives. To be open to the craziness. Crazy being defined as something that is out of the norm or seemingly 'crazy' to you but might be completely normal to someone else.
There are obviously lots of things I could do that would be considered crazy, at least for me. Sky diving. Drinking in the morning. Eating red meat! But there is one thing that has been weighing on my heart for a long time. Every time I revisit it or try to get serious about it I flake. I give up. It's hard and I too easily succumb to the thoughts of 'I can't do this.'
Instead of resisting this idea, again, or pushing it aside, I am choosing to embrace it. To embrace the crazy: I want to live a minimalistic lifestyle. And I want to start now.
In some ways I am pretty minimalistic. Like in my makeup - I don't wear much. But in other ways I am pretty much a mild hoarder. In those areas, the thought of reducing my possessions, my material belongings, is frightening. I have anxiety when I think about thinking about getting rid of clothes or shoes or books. That anxiety, that resistance to getting rid of things is what pushes me forward with this.
I want to get to a place where I am more focused on what I can do next, who I can help, what the next adventure will be and not focused on what outfit to add to my closet, what newest gadget to purchase.
I am documenting this process to keep myself on track and to keep myself honest. I'll try to update regularly. Hopefully one day I can look back on all of this and reflect on how different life is after making this change.
